90th Video!

So I just uploaded my 90th video, guys!! Not all 90 of my videos are public, unfortunately, but video number 90 nonetheless :]
So that means I have 10 to go until video number 100!!
I want my 100th video to be special, and I'm thinking another giveaway!
I haven't heard anything after my first giveaway, and I'm hoping that the winner received the prize. I was worried because often packages without a last name for the recipient get sent back, and of course, I didn't include a return address, so I would never know? But I'm just hoping she got the ring & postcard.
As far as prizes for the 100th video giveaway, I'm thinking some nail polish & makeup. I wouldn't be able to get the prizes for a little bit, though, so I'd have to upload videos less until then, maybe only one a week (eeep). I've gotten really used to doing almost daily videos for you guys!!
But I actually might have to hold off filming for awhile, since my wisdom teeth healing is going a lot slower than I thought. I have one more video to edit and upload, which I was planning on uploading tomorrow. And I guess another one too, but I was planning on saving it for some later time. It's a dance/going out smoky eye look.
I have another video that I plan to film, another tutorial, which I think I might actually be able to do it if you guys are fine with another tutorial that is just an up close eye thing, without talking, and subtitle things instead. Talking hurts, which is why I haven't been making vlogs about my healing process (just constant tweeting haha) and my face is still rather swollen looking. I can tell more than other people, but still. So that's 3 videos toward the 10 I need to get to 100 :P
So let's see...I'm going to try to plan the upcoming 7 for you guys. Let's do this in list form.
And I'm not committing to doing these videos, it's kind of more of a brainstorm. If these end up not being the videos that I put up, then I'm sorry? Hahaha.
Here we go...so,
1. Egyptian Eye Makeup Tutorial - filmed, will be edited and uploaded soon.
2. Dark Smoky Eye - Good for Dances & Going Out Tutorial - filmed, not sure when I'll edit & upload.
3. Mermaid Eye Makeup Tutorial - plan to film early next week, if I don't have to talk/show my puffy face.
4. Adore Me Review (Part 2) - plan to film asap, pretty much as soon as I look like a normal human and can at least talk a decent amount without too much pain.
5. Zombie Makeup Tutorial - planned to film this one the Friday before Halloween. Hope I can.
6. My Halloween Costume! - I'm going to show you guys my Halloween costume, and link all of the tutorials I have that can help you get my Halloween look. Ideally this would be the video that goes up on Halloween or the day before...but we don't live in a perfect world...*sigh*
7. October Haul Video - I have a few things. Reminder to myself, stuff from Forever 21, Charlotte Russe, maybe art supplies? Anything else that I might buy...?
8. Revlon GrowLuscious Mascara - Does It Really Make Your Lashes Grow? - I did some before and after photos for this a LONG time ago. It's basically going to be a review and also whether I think it made my lashes grow or if it's just a really good mascara (but not a lash treatment). I've been planning to do this video FOREVER. I don't know why I never get to it.
9. The Monthly Pantyhose #1 - November - I don't know if this will be my 99th video or not. I might decide to do these at the end of the month. I just know that I'm going to start doing them. I really don't care anymore what creepy things are said to me. There's nothing wrong with doing videos about tights/nylons/pantyhose/whatever. If the block button has to be my bff, then so be it.
10. 100TH VIDEO GIVEAWAY!!
So I'd say that that is a pretty good plan. I didn't factor into it when my Ear Stretching Series videos will be uploaded, though. I have a schedule for filming and doing them in my planner. Also coming up, I'm going to be doing a November Haul, I've got a lot of things I plan on buying in November, hahaha, and I think my roommate and I are going to do the Roommate Tag, possibly. There will be more OOTD videos, and I think once my new job starts up I'll do a Work Clothes OOTD? I think I'm also going to make a video, Tutorial - How I Wash My Makeup Brushes because I feel like that would have been helpful for me when I was younger & more inexperienced? I actually got my soap mixture recipe type thing from Tami (tinytea5) so if I do that video, I'm definitely going to link that in the down bar. The point of it is like how I wash & dry them, though, so yeahz. There's got to be some cute Thanksgiving Tag to do in November, too, right? Hahaha. But yeah. That's pretty much the next few months of videos at a glance.
YOU GUYS SHOULD SUBSCRIBE TO MY SECOND CHANNEL!! I feel like if there were more subbies on that channel, I would upload more and do more with it. THERE ARE SO MANY POSSIBILITIES!! I think I'm going to make an attempt to make Wisdom Teeth Vlog #3 today. As soon as I can really do a lot of talking, I'm going to make a vlog describing the whole experience. It'll probably be really long. And I want to do more Shopping Vlogs where I secretly take you to the store w/ me and show you things. The only issue is that until I can get my iPhone videos to properly go onto my computer, I can't do a lot. I had to delete my iPhone video editing app, because it all just took up WAY too much room on my phone. Would you guys want to see random videos of me & my friends & family on my vlog channel? That would be really easy for me to do. What would I call them, though? Hmmm...
But yeah, tell me what you think! Oh, and PLEASE REQUEST TUTORIALS!! I love doing them, whether they get a lot of views or not, and want to know what kind of looks you guys want to see :]

Ear Stretching -- 12g to 10g

So, I filmed this video on Saturday. Since then, my right ear plug has been giving me all sorts of trouble. I might have to take the bands from my tapers and use them on the front of them, since it just won't stay in! On Monday I looked in the mirror to see that it was gone - but I still felt it in my ear! The tapered end went inside! And today I woke up and it had fallen out of my ear. I didn't notice until I was in the shower - thankfully my sister found it for me on my bed. I was freaking out, thinking it had went down the drain!!  It's weird, though, that only the right one is giving me trouble. I'll have a lot more to say when I do my progress video, though.
If you want to get these same plugs and tapers, here's a link to the site I use: http://www.bodyjewelrysource.com
The plug set that I have probably isn't the greatest in the world but it's so cheap for all of those! I was paying about that much for one set at the local store I was buying my plugs & gauges from!

More on Adore Me & my wisdom teeth!

Adore Me is the first lingerie website to give you the personalized shopping experience that sites such as jewelmint and boutiques.com do. Like jewelmint, their prices are set - $39.95 per set, always, and with free shipping and returns. Your showroom will change each month with new/updated products that they believe are suited to your style and taste. Signing up to the site doesn't mean you have to buy each month - but your showroom will always be updated.

The site will be up in November, and that is when you will be able to take your style quiz. If you sign up now, you will most likely receive an e-mail as soon as you are able to access the full site. And with the site up and running, there will be staff to assist you with any questions about sizing etc. It should be a very pleasant shopping experience. 

When I am able to complete my sample product review (which, again, will just be another talking video - I am in no way shape or form going to model the product) I will hopefully be able to give you an idea about the quality, sizing, etc. 

And don't forget about your personalized link you get when you sign up! Every 10 people who use your link and then sign up will get you a free set. 

Here is a link to the official site: http://www.adoreme.com

This is my personalized link: http://www.adoreme.com/25958 <-- yours will look similar to that

Only one person ever clicked mine (my sister, I think) and it emailed me when she did. So you will be kept notified about your progress, despite the fact that the site is not fully functional. 

Their facebook and twitter are linked on the homepage, but you can also get them from my Introduction Video, which I will link as well: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOuDI_AD6XE I hope you guys check them out :] 

I'm hoping to not get a ton of hate for doing this video, I think that this website will be really cool. I'm not doing anything 'risque' or anything, either. So, fingers crossed. 

Tomorrow I am getting my wisdom teeth removed (aka the reason why I can't film a proper review video, after not having time to review the product during midterms) and I'm really frightened. 

Wish me luck! 

And if you want to keep track of how it all goes, I'm running a vlog series on my second channel, http://www.youtube.com/AmandaIThink

Here's a link to the vlog I uploaded today (where I freak out about food): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SmvlxU_lpug

I hope you guys have a great day/night (whenever you're reading this) and check out the previous entry to help me figure out ways to better integrate my blog to my youtube channel (aka the only reason I have this blog haha)

It's been a long time...

since I made an entry. I know. I'm sorry.
I keep putting the link to this blog in all of my videos, though, so I might as well use it.
I just need to come up with a way to better integrate it.
Like close up shots of finished tutorial looks?
Shots of my OOTD items w/ buying info - links if I can find them?
Further information on promotions and reviewed items?
Explanations for things?
I don't know. But this will be better, I hope.

Video Ideas Needed!!

I need some video ideas, guys!!
Nothing involving tights, of course, though >:/
If you want a tutorial, images to work with? :P That would be cools.
Please tell me what you'd like to see :D

Summer seems to...

Not really be the best time for me to make videos.
I even have a bunch of things I intended to haul, but I just don't really get to it -_-
Now that the weather is super nice, and everyone is around, I'm off doing things and hanging out with people, and going on trips. And then I also have work, and so when I do have time I just end up doing other pursuits. Sorry guys :/
I will try to do as much as I can muster, but you can plan on a lot more once fall starts!

If you follow me on twitter...

you know of the deep lurrrrve I have for my friend Sonny aka sincerelysonny
Well, she doesn't live in the same state as me anymore BUT this weekend me, her, my boyfriend, and my sister (her and Sonny are best friends for life - thus why I've known Sonny since she was 6 years old) are going to a comic convention!!
NERD-TASTIC I know. But you actually already knew my inner nerd if you watched my Ramona Flowers costume tutorial. And guess what?
I'm going as Ramona Flowers.
SHOCKER I know. But since I'm getting a haircut tomorrow, most likely, I'm going to do it BIGGER and BETTER and it's gonna be AWESOME!
Harder.Better.Faster.Stronger. (what band am I a fan of?) (hint: not Kanye West).
SO. I've been quite slow on the video front and I couldn't get my boyfriend's memory card to work on my camera so we're just gonna have to wait for my nerd-tastic POTC4 OOTD & vlog. Also we'll have to wait for the Pirate inspired makeup tutorial until after I post that. It's already filmed and edited though. Thumbs up for effort??
I will try to do a big comic convention vlog thingy. I think I'm going to put my memory card into my little Kodak Easy Share camera and vlog on that, though, because my nice camera is just too bulky to be vlogging along at a convention.
Should I make a separate vlog channel and keep my main channel more beauty relevant?? LEMME KNOW! Actually, I'll just make a video about it later w/ my webcam. So then you can really let me know, since I don't think anyone really follows this blog :P
LUV YEW!!

To Do List (that I can think of right now)

* GIVEAWAY WINNER VIDEO

* VARIOUS FUN VLOGS

* SEVERAL CUTE TAG VIDEOS

New Router, YAY!

So for two days I didn't have WiFi (which pretty much means no internet, since our desktop is a P.O.S. and the ethernet cord wouldn't function on my MacBook for some odd reason) and now I FINALLY can use internet at my house again. WOOOOHOOOO!!!
But this issue didn't stop me from uploading a vlog today at my boyfriend's house. I filmed 3 videos yesterday. OH. And when I was at my boyfriend's house today I borrowed his memory card and uploaded the POTC 4 footage onto my computer :] So I'll be editing that tonight.
Ahhh and now I have my precious Netflix back <3 YAY!!
I have work tomorrow and Wednesday. Then no work Thursday, and on Friday road trip to my Grandma's house for my sisters open house. I'll try to do some vlogging while I'm there. What are you guys interested in seeing vlogs about??

NEW TUTORIAL :D

I uploaded my Rockstar Makeup Tutorial today :]
Sorry I've been so absent lately.
I have a vlog from the POTC 4 opening that is now like 2 weeks overdue. But I filmed it on my boyfriend's camera and he won't let me take his memory card so poo!
But soon I'll get it edited and uploaded. Maybe I'll bring my camera and computer over to his house sometime soon.
But I bring this up BECAUSE...soon I'll be filming a tutorial for the eye makeup look I wore that night. Yay!
Now I'm going to get back to being lazy and watching TV. Hahaha.
Bye bye!!

Bleh...I'm sorry.

I have been sucking at uploading videos lately.
I'll get to it soon :/
Hmm...I'll probably be able to start editing again soon.

Sorry I've been MIA

My life is just finally getting more exciting as far as actually leaving my house and doing stuff w/ friends goes. And plus, I've been working like crazy.
I have videos I need to edit.
I know.
I will as soon as I feel like it? I know that's kind of like 'eh?' to say but my personal time is precious now and I dunno. Sowwyz :(

I love Google right now!!!

I get to promote my YouTube for free!!
SO EXCITED!!
:]

Woooooork D:

So who had a day off yesterday?? I did. And guess who ended up going to work anyway. ME. o.O
It is taking over my liiiiiiiiiife!

Upcoming Videos

My upcoming videos list is getting SOOOOO low o.O
And two of them I'm not even sure I'll be able to make anytime soon. So apart from random tag videos...WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!!
D:
I need some inspiration...
and requests!

I also need to end my giveaway soon...

BUT ANYWAY
These are my upcoming videos (to film -- I've got a lot already filmed to edit and post at my fancy).

- Revlon Mascara Review
- Clothing Haul
- Shoe Collection Video
- Socks & Tights Combo Video
- Pantyhose Reviews

See? SMALL LIST.

So I came up

with this new rule-type thingy for my video uploading.
Sometimes it gives me time to film more, so I guess it's good.
Unless some of them are contest entries, don't upload more than one a day
&&
don't upload another video until the previous video has at least 100 views.
That's my new rule :P
In case you were curious.

Oh and I've decided, since I have sooooooo many pantyhose that I will be making a monthly favourite type video for them and so then I can get going on that. If I make them into little quickies, maybe weekly...but then again I wear tights more often than I wear pantyhose/nylons/stockings/etc.
All I have to do...is come up with something to call them. They need a good title.

Possibly uploading a tag video tomorrow. Think I might film this morning.

Diana F+ Deluxe Kit

I'm uploading my Diana F+ Deluxe Kit Show & Tell video right now. I love that camera, it's so cool. I should have shown some of my photos in the vlog, but oh well. I'd show them to you here if I felt like scanning them...but I really don't. Hahaha. Sorry. But that's kind of what happens when you do these things so late at night - motivation levels go dooooooown :P
BUT
Here is a link in case you want to get the camera kit. You can get the camera alone & any other lenses for it etc that you want on the same site. But this is the kit that I have, here.
Hope you guys like the video!!

So many videos to edit!

I mean honestly, there's a lot.
But I'd really like more views on my normal videos >:/ (aka nothing to do with tights at all)
It's so frustrating.
You don't even know.

She's back...???!!!??

Guys, I have been on a video making spree!!
I've had plenty of battery issues, since my camera doesn't have one of those rechargeable batteries...but I've kept at it!! :]
And soon some of your guys' requests will be fulfilled & hopefully I'll get some more requests.
The only real video requests that there are holds on is the socks/tights combo video (because I don't have enough socks that would work...) and the pantyhose review video, due to the fact that I really have to come up with a way to film/shoot it so that I get the least amount of creepy-ness possible. I never thought that that would be a real issue, but I guess it is and that sucks.
So thank you so much for watching my videos, guys!!
<33

3 Months

It's been 3 months...
and I still miss you Nicole.
Riley is growing up so fast, you must be so proud <3
Emily was so happy that it snowed today. She thought it was perfect.
Life feels like it's only getting harder...
but hopefully everything will be alright?
I love you, Nicole Joy.
:')

Workworkwork

I work from 2-close tomorrow and the next day. BLEH!!
But then I have Wednesday and Thursday off & am going to go out and buy foundation on Thursday, I hope. I hate having this big school bill & not being able to spend all of the money I work for.
Ugh but oh well. Hopefully more videos soon...
:(

Tumblr

I do have one, I forgot to mention that when someone told me to move my blog there. But I barely use it and it has nothing to do with my YouTube (everything that has to do with my YouTube is connected to the same e-mail and everything personal has no connection to that e-mail, that's how I chose to distinguish them). But I do have one. The only reason I thought to mention it right now is because I re-figured out the e-mail and password for it, since my friends (they're married) started one. She wanted to start one because her husband is in the Marines & after they got married she moved with him to California, and this summer they are moving to Japan and will be there for three years. She wanted a Tumblr to be able to write about their lives more in depth than Facebook and to share other stuff etc. I have a facebook. It's personal. Technically so was my twitter, but I've decided that I do want to talk to you guys and I'm good with talking to you all on twitter. So yeah :]
BY THE WAY:: ENTER MY GIVEAWAY, PLEASE :D

SADNESS!!

I have no foundation. And am not allowed to spend my money on anything but my bill. And my parents don't get paid until the end of the week.
So I'm sorry. I'm not going to be making any YouTube videos until I have foundation o.O

YAY FOR PRETTY BLOGS!

I just beautified my blog, but I'm really annoyed because I want the header centred but I can't figure out how to do that because the template won't let me change that. And it just seems like a giant pain to go into the HTML and try to look for the header thingy and change it to centered, or whatever. So bleh.
It was summery outside yesterday and now it's all cold again. I work from 7 to close today. But there's NOTHING TO DO. My sisters aren't on spring break anymore so life is boring again. Bleh.
As far as videos go...I kind of want to film but I don't really know what I want to film. It's complicated.

:]

Thanks for all the birthday wishes, guys!
Today is my birthday party, and it's the nicest day of the year so far SO YAY!!
I lucked out on the weather :D
Hope you all are having a great day!!

Oh geez

I just thought about it, and I actually haven't checked my PO Box in months. Bahahaha.
Maybe I'll check it soon. Unfortunately I'm figuring it will just be dumb tights stuff.
And I'm still firmly angry at all the creepiness of doing tights videos.
There's one video I have to make and we'll see how it goes once I make it. But don't think I won't remove it if people get too creepy.
Then I need to make another video but it's less pressing. I still don't have the socks for it, so...yeah. And I'm not allowed to go shopping until my bill is paid. So that is how that is.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D

Well it's technically the 7th now but whatever. Since I haven't went to bed yet, I think it still counts as my birthday :P
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!
I had a lot of fun today, and I'm still going to be doing birthday stuff for the next few days, with friends and family. 'Cause you know, not everyone is free or in town on the same day :P
I'm going to be finishing, editing, and uploading a birthday vlog soon. It's a follow me around type of thing :]
Hope you guys like it!!

GIVEAWAY!!! :D

My giveaway is finally up!!
I am giving away a hummingbird ring, a Toronto postcard, and a surprise!!
I'm so excited!! I hope I get a lot of entrants --- no fun if there's hardly any :(
BUT
To enter you have to follow the rules and I'll tell them to you here:
1. You MUST be subscribed to my YouTube channel
2. You MUST follow me on Twitter
3. You MUST leave a comment on my giveaway video saying what your favourite trip/vacation was. In the comment you must also tell me your Twitter name, so that I know it's you that's following me, y'know?
So only 3 things - really easy.
To make it super easy, here are the links too!
http://www.youtube.com/AmandaAtMidnight <-- SUBSCRIBE
http://www.twitter.com/Amazingda <-- FOLLOW
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Now it's really mostly button clicking. And you don't even have to go in detail about your trip. Just "My favourite vacation/trip was _______"
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SUBSCRIBING AND MAKING THIS GIVEAWAY POSSIBLE
I will be doing more giveaways and contests in the future.
LUV YEW!! <3

Monday is...

*drumroll*
Giveaway time!!
Sorry it took so long, but hey. Whatever :P
I'm soooo excited!!

You have to ruin a nice thing, eh?

Well I've had it up to here (here being above my head if your imagining this) with all of the creeps and just plain rude people. I check my YouTube very often so they don't really get the satisfaction since they're deleted and blocked so quickly, but still. It really upsets me. So I've put my two tights videos on private and I think I'll have a dramatically reduced number of creeps. And I swear to god if this kind of stuff keeps happening I'm going to put all of my videos on private and delete 95% of my subscribers. And I say 95% because I would keep my real life friends etc. I started this out because I thought it would be fun, but if you're going to ruin a nice thing for me, fine. We'll see what happens.

Hmmmm

I know that the vocals are off on my haul video and that's probably why it hasn't gotten very many views...but I kind of want it to have more views before I do my giveaway. The videos been filmed and everything...but I want to wait, I guess.

Ruca (my kitty) is being so cute right now :]

Guess what!

I filmed 2 videos tonight!!
I'm too tired to do any editing, but one of them will definitely be up tomorrow.
Then I'll put the next one up on Tuesday.
I want to try to film a bunch of videos and just have them to edit and upload as I please. Because I don't like being so busy or unable to film for you guys.
I have 184 of you!! And I wuv ya :D

Batteries...bleh

I wish my camera just had one of those re-chargable battery pack things. Instead it takes 4 AA batteries...and I'm out of batteries and it's low etc etc :/
So if I do film any videos before next week it will have to be on my MacBook.
LAME-NESS!

Hmmm

Can blocked people watch your videos still?
I hope not :/

Alrighty then

When I could have been getting ready this morning I was actually watching the Big Fat Quiz of the Year for 2007, with Russell Brand & Noel Fielding (aka the Goth Detectives). I had been up until 4 last night (I watched 2006, obv). Russell Brand = hilarious. Noel Fielding = hilarious. If Arthur was in theatres on my birthday, I would go see it. Unfortunately it doesn't come out until two days later. So I'll probably be seeing Hop :P I like cute movies. And, of course, I'm getting my last years birthday present too this year. It's the Mighty Boosh Special Edition DVD (of course). So really, Russell & Noel are very relevant to my life. Especially since I just read 'My Booky Wook'. I wish I had a useable library card...I want to read 'My Booky Wook 2'. I could possibly convince my mom to use hers to check it out for me. But she gets all mad when we get late fees on her card sooooo we'll see. But anyway...my sister is home now and I'm only partially ready and it's just too late. No filming today. Sadness. I was more pumped about it yesterday but I didn't get to do it. And now I wake up today and just want to watch some of my favourite British comedians and have to feel guilty. Oh well. I think you guys will live, since you've all got your own lives and what-not what-have-you. It's not that I don't wuv you. It's that I'm easily distracted, tend to get busy, and have a weird sleeping schedule. So you see, even when I'm not at school, I am an art student. Would you wuv me if I was any other way??

Go bye-bye??

Hahaha that's what I want my family to do so that I can film videos :P
I really hate filming when people are home. My house isn't that big, and everyone is SO noisy.
I can hear them right now, and I'm all moody, and getting annoyed.
Bleh...

Sorry

I've been a bad blogger lately.
But I had a really fun weekend, and now that I have work I'm really pressed for time.
Because I'm not like a hermit or anything, hahaha. So now that I have a job it's like...taking the time that I would be using for YouTube, you know? And I'm sorry about that. But I don't work tomorrow or Tuesday, so once I'm all ready for the day etc tomorrow, I'll start trying to remember everything I got in Chicago and Toronto and gather it all up to do a haul video for you guys AND I'll film my giveaway video :]
And I hope you know, if you read my blog, that if I don't get a lot of entries for my giveaway it's not going to be very fun for me at all. And if it's only like 5 people it's just not even happening. So be warned, haha.
Usually people wait until at least like 300 subscribers, and I decided to do 100 (even though now it's closer to 200) but yeah.
Generally when people do giveaways they want to have fun and you need enough people so that it can actually be a random giveaway, you know??
I don't know.
But whatever :P

Whyyyy D:

I'm getting sick again! What's wrong with me???
Like loosing my voice, sneezing and coughing...
It's like the same as last time o.O
WHAT THE HELL?!

Ahem, well

I live in a magical world of interwebz. My mom says I'm anti-social. But really only when I don't have plans w/ my friends/sisters/etc. Tisk tisk.
I'm waiting until all the wash is done (which at my house, for absolutely all my clothes to get back to me, may take a long time) to do my haul. Because I want everything to be there. I did a lot of shopping in Chicago :P
Once the haul is filmed, I will film the giveaway. I'm waiting, because the giveaway stuff is from my trips. If that makes any sense??

Something cool!

As you guys may know if you've been following this blog, I'm in a bit of financial trouble. I have a job now, but my sissy gave me a great idea.
I have tons of nylons and tights now that I'm spending time wearing and reviewing (and for times sakes, letting my sisters wear and review because there's just SO MANY and I'm only one person :P).
So what about a blog sale?
Just a small amount of what I've got, after I've reviewed them and made my video(s) so as to share the love a little bit?
I'll still be doing my giveaway soon, once I have time to film. But hey, I think a little blog sale would be nice. Especially if things don't fit me but might fit *you* or a certain shade of pantyhose doesn't flatter my skin tone (i.e. it makes my legs look too tanned thus making me look ridiculous but what if *you* have a nice tan or just a pretty tan natural skin tone??).
So we'll see about this little idear, eh?
I'll of course be making a video about this idea before it's actually implemented. But yeah :]

It's official, I'm pretty sure

Once I complete the requests I've already accepted, I will be doing no more tights videos.
You will see tights and leggings in my outfit of the day videos, most definitely. But I have nothing more to say on the subject of tights. No one EVER had to tell ME all of this information. Once my mom taught me how to put them on (in grade school, by the way. Why haven't YOUR mothers taught you this??) it was all my own thing.
Tights are in right now and comfortable and if I see a pair that I like I get them and put them together in outfits. It's important to have confidence in your own sense of fashion. I'm not going to tell you how to replicate my taste. Especially since you obviously care more about tights etc than I do. To me it's just something I wear, something that is more comfortable than jeans and I get them to match the things I really like: CLOTHES.
I love dresses and shirts and shoes WAY more than I love tights etc. I do love them, but they're not that fricking important and I'm sorry for the rant but I'm just irritated by all of the creepy guys who want to see me wearing tights. Eff you. Honestly.

Music...

I have a video that's edited and everything, but it's a sped up video with no audio.
I need music for it and I don't want to use copy righted music.
And the iMovie music is kind of lame...
But I'll probably end up using it, because I don't know what else I could use :/

Prom

I'm thinking I'm going to do some Prom stuff. Like hair tutorials, and makeup tutorials, and dress and shoe advice. It's getting to be that time of year. Plus since I'm home and everything, I can use my sisters as hair examples.
You see, they have much more hair than I do.
I'd have more to work with :P
Plus, one of my ideas involve french braiding, and I can't do that to my own hair (which I will admit in the video, don't worry. It's hard to do that in a mirror. My cousin is a cosmetologist and even she has trouble doing her own hair in french braids).
But yeah.

Uploading shouldn't take so long

I am a very impatient person, sometimes.
But I really should get ready for the day. I kind of just woke up and started uploading my Updated Everyday Makeup Routine to YouTube. I had finished it late last night, but I was just too tired to upload it.
I hope you guys like the video, though.
If you're wondering why I was kind of quiet, it's because my sister was home. So I was trying very hard for her to not be able to hear me. We live in a small house, though, so chances are high that she could hear me, hahaha.
Plus I'm just not very energetic at that time of the day :P
But yeah, I hope you like it :]
I wouldn't mind having more subscribers and views on YouTube. I get kind of down when I see how many subscribers etc these girls that are younger than me have. I mean, they've obviously been doing this a lot longer than me, but how do they get that many subscribers to begin with?!
*Le sigh*

Ugh

I don't know.

Bleh.

Going to download and edit my makeup tutorial soon.

Hmmmmm...meh. 

Question:

If I won't give out my real address, why would I give out my number? 

Not in a million years.

>:/

High Definition

I've always uploaded in Medium just because I figure it'll be good enough and go fast. But I just finished editing my Shedd Aquarium video and I'm exporting it in HD :D
It's taking forever and making my computer very slow. So I hope you appreciate it :P
I filmed my requested Updated Everyday Makeup Tutorial video :]
Soon I'll do my haul video...
Hopefully before I start working a lot.
I hope my vacation break has prepared you guys for how much less I'll be filming/uploading once I start working a lot. I'll always make an effort, but I'm just saying.
Oh and how could I forget, I'M GOING TO BE DOING MY GIVEAWAY REALLY REALLY SOON!! :]
So exciting!! I can't wait <3

Fail.

I hung out too late so I won't be cleaning my room. I think I'm going to start filming in a different room though so that might be okay.
I'm really tired though and trying to get my sleeping schedule back to normal, so I probably won't start on my Chicago video editing.
Sorry :(
Promise I'll have a new video up tomorrow, though. So don't worry!

Dang Guyz

Sorry I haven't been making any videos. It may only feel like 2 weeks to me but I guess that's like FOREVER in YouTube world.
So I'm just going to catch you up on my plans. It's Wednesday. I have plans today with my friend, since it's her spring break right now. I have no plans on Thursday or Friday. So TONIGHT after I'm done hanging out with Brenna I'm going to put together my Chicago video.
And maybe I'll film. But I don't know where I'd film. All the packing and repacking and looking for crap etc has kind of left my room super messy. So chances are I'll clean my room tonight and film tomorrow. Not sure what I'll film, though.
I know I'm definitely not in the mood for any tights videos. I promised I'd do so freaking many but HONESTLY I am sick of people creeping on me about them. I'm just a person. I'm just wearing tights. If I were just a girl who passed you on the streets wearing tights, bet you wouldn't say weird crap to me. I want to talk to people on YouTube but not people with weird fetishes. I'm sorry, but no.
On the top of my head I think I have maybe 3 tights videos I still have to do? One w/ socks, the nylon video, and the FML video. I'll do them, they'll get done eventually, I promise. I just need a break.
Plus now that I have a job I'll be wearing mostly jeans that I don't care get covered in ice cream. So I think it's a good time for a tights break.
Gonna focus more on makeup and other fashionable things. Tights, as I've said before, are just a finishing aspect of an outfit - not the main thing. If I'm wearing a dress and some tights, I'm wanting people to look at the goddam dress. The tights keep my legs warm if it's winter, and if it's summer I'm wearing them because it's a short dress and I don't want to look like a skank.
So I'm going to do a new everyday makeup tutorial, and a combined Chicago/Toronto haul. Eventually I'll film some more makeup tutorials - one of them reviewing my giveaway items that I received from tinytea5 :] I'm really loving the shadows and brushes I received. I haven't tried the mascara yet because I'm still in review mode for the Revlon mascara. Actually I could probably do that review soon.
But yeah, I'm gonna get back out there.
Don't worry.

A MOMENT OF YOUR TIME, REAL QUICK

My sister has finally made an etsy account and I would love it if you all checked it out!! I'll be doing a YouTube video about this really soon, because she totally deserves some promotion.
Here's the link:

http://www.etsy.com/shop/EMILoveYou024?ref=si_shop

I don't know if it will be clickable or not, but if not please do me a solid and copy it into your web browser and take a peek. All of her stuff is really affordable.
Some of it she made with Nicole, and if you've been following this blog for very long you know all about what happened with Nicole :(
But it would mean a lot to me if you checked it out, maybe spent a few dollars on a bracelet. Em really needs this. All of the money that she makes off of her etsy will be going toward her college. And if you have a certain type of hemp or friendship bracelet that you'd like to have made for you and buy, just comment me here, or message me on YouTube about it (or leave a comment on YouTube once I have the video about her etsy). It would mean the world to me if you could do this for my sister. She's been through an awful lot lately.
Thank you so so very much!!

RIP Nicole Joy - I love you soooo much <3

I GOT THE JOB!

YAY!!
If you follow me on twitter, you know that I had an interview today :] I don't remember if I blogged about it at all, so I guess this might be the first some of you have heard of it. I put my tweets on private so they don't run down the side of the page anymore. But hey, I'm always on twitter so if you request to follow me you'll get accepted pretty quickly.
It's a job at a local ice cream place. I'm really excited. This is my first job!! EEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
My first day of training is Saturday. I can't wait <3
Mark is very proud of me.
I can't wait to start! It's going to be really busy once summer hits (like any ice cream place) but I think it will be really fun.
I'm so proud of myself!!

The Social Network

That's what I'm watching right now.
It takes place 8 years ago and the main character was blogging on LiveJournal. I used to have a LiveJournal hahaha. It's been 6 years since I used LiveJournal.
It probably still exists? I don't remember what my LiveJournal name was. Or the password. Or which e-mail I used. Or the password for any of my old e-mails bahahaha.
I actually have so much 'dead' stuff on the internet. It's kind of silly.
I spend waaaaay too much time on the internet.
Honestly.

Travel Travel Travel

Sorry I haven't been making videos lately. I've just been doing so much traveling!!
But I'll be back at it soon :]
I do have questions to ask you guys, though, that read my blog even if you don't comment.
I'm kind of in a bit of a financial muck right now and would much appreciate any REAL job leads or advice etc :P If you know of anything, that is. Hahahaha.
I've just been having the worst time of it all, hmm?
Oh and I don't have a video of me in Toronto. I forgot to bring my camera D:
But oh well. I'm going to make a cute little fishy video from Shedd Aquarium footage in Chicago so that should be good enough. I might do a vlog about my Toronto trip...nah I did that before and I don't feel like it ahaha. So scratch that. You just have an aquarium montage to look forward to if you like fish :P
I was requested to put up pictures from that, but I don't even have them on my computer yet...so I just really don't want to bother. It seems like it would take a long time on a blog anyway haha. Plus it would format weird like Tami's does when she posts pictures and I stupidly care about aesthetics haha.
But yeah please leave comments, advice, etc!!
Love you guyz. Can't wait to make some more videos.
Though I do wish you'd all cool it on the tights thing. Tights aren't my life. I have a few upcoming tights videos but I have MANY more interests (for example, I'd rather buy dresses and makeup and shoes hahaha though tights complete those looks a lot of the time, the main focus is *drumroll* not the tights...I really do hope I make that clear in my videos, previous or upcoming). Still lots of wuv though. Alwayz.

Lady Gaga was AMAZING

Yesterday I saw her perform at the Air Canada Centre :D It was AMAZING and INCREDIBLE.
She is an awesome entertainer, I have to say. Mark, who is not a really big Lady Gaga fan, even loved it. I knew that I was going to love it though just because I lurrrrrrrrrrve her.
And I loved her performance with Maria, the little 10 year old from Winnipeg (sp?). It was AMAZING. Especially for her age, Maria is sooooo talented. I don't know if you follow Lady Gaga on twitter/facebook (which I do) but Maria is the little girl from that YouTube video that she shared. I was so excited when she announced her on stage hahaha. I retweeted this thing from the Fred Flare blog that had pictures. Seeing the pictures was cool just because I had actually saw it happen in person, hahah. Kind of like reliving it a little?
Anyway, all of the stage sets and effects were amazing. The Fame Monster? EPIC. It kind of resembled one of those lantern fishy things (think Finding Nemo).
I love all of the causes that Gaga supports, it's just so easy for me to love her even more after seeing her live. Am I going to buy her new album when it comes out at the end of the month. No. Why not? Because my birthday is at the beginning of April so I'm just going to ask for it as a present :]
I can't exactly recapture it in all of it's glory just by writing about it like this. You need to go see Lady Gaga. It's just wonderful <3
In other news:
I finally tried poutine! It was really good/yummy :P
And I went to the MAC store. I only bought two things but MAC is expensive, especially on Bloor St in Canada, so Mark was really put off. I bought blotting powder and Viva Glam Gaga 2.
Mark says I'm not allowed to buy anything else for the rest of the trip.
Not that he can stop me or anything, but I don't want him to be upset with me, you know? I really really need a job. Why is it so hard for me, I don't get it :(
I've been looking for a job since I came home from school in the middle/end of January. It's the beginning of March and still NOTHING. Not fair.

Guess who's in Toronto??

If you guess 'Amanda' then you're right.
It's so exciting!! I got here late last night and haven't done much since waking up but still!! I have a lot planned and it's going to be really fun, even if my boyfriend has to do a lot of studying this week/weekend.
Oh and if you were wondering what's up with my computer and phone after the incidents that I tweeted about the other day, I turned on my computer after letting it dry out for 2 days and it is fine, thank god. I rock a Macbook and I know it's no Macbook Pro but that's still a thousand dollars and I do not want to have to buy a new one anytime soon. My next big purchase had better be a DSLR, not a new laptop ahahaha.
As far as my phone goes, it's still in its rice baggy. I'm not gonna open it until tomorrow or maybe even wait until I get home from Canada - it's not like I can use it here.
Oh and you probably didn't know this already: I had wanted an iPhone for my birthday but I just found out that my contract doesn't renew until next year. So that's out. I wonder what I should get for my birthday now :/ My dad has it in his head that I should have a flat screen TV. Why? My TV works perfectly fine.
He's just silly sometimes.
I'll write more tonight probably/maybe. Once I have more exciting Toronto stories to tell you.
TOMORROW I'M TRYING POUTINE (SP??)!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHICAGO

So, Chicago was awesome!! I'm going to tell you EVERYWHERE I went and where I stayed, since it doesn't matter now that I'm not there + I don't live in Chicago :P I'm going to make a little video containing all of the little clips from my Chicago trip. I don't think I'm going to put it on my main channel, though. I think I'm going to make a personal channel for stuff like that. But anyway, here we go!

We went to:

Amalfi Hotel

This is the hotel that we stayed in. It was alright. It didn't have a pool, though, and I REALLY like going swimming when we stay at a hotel. And the room was rather small for 5 people. We didn't spend a lot of time at the hotel, but a bit more space would have been appreciated. Because I'm quite sure that half the reason we never had a bit of relaxing hotel time is because there was no pool, and nowhere to just lounge around. We just had two queen sized beds, a chair near the window, a bedside table in between, a dresser in front of the beds with a TV on it, and a small desk with desk chair. I think the other hotels we've stayed at in Chicago have all had more spacious rooms...and pools. We're usually big on the pools. But my mom booked this one at the last minute, so whatever. We usually don't stay in downtown Chicago either, because we do a lot of shopping on Milwaukee St. But hey, downtown is nice. When I would go to Chicago for school trips we'd stay downtown. OH if I say one thing about our room it would have to be this. THERE'S A CREEPER SPOT!! It's this little nook where the curtain goes into, and I know that's why it's there, but we tested it, and a full grown man could fit in there and not be seen AT ALL but see EVERYTHING that you're doing. NOT COOL. But we didn't have any creeps peeping on us so it was fine. And we didn't find the spot until we were packing everything so it's not like we spent the whole trip fearfully checking. But still. Anyway, let's get to some nice stuff. Free breakfast every morning at this little zone by the elevators. I had a danish, some yogurt, a banana, some apple juice, and some tea the first morning. Two cups of tea, actually. And the second morning I had a donut, some yogurt, 2 bananas, some apple juice, and two cups of tea. The fluids, you see, are very helpful when you're sick. I'm not just some liquid drinking crazy. Hahahaha. Because I'm sure that's what you thought (not). But yeah. Oooh and they have a nice valet service. But what sucks was that parking was $45 a night. Not cool. Things are so expensive in Chicago. Taxes are 10-15% there and in Michigan, it's a 6% tax always. Never changes unless there's a deposit (this happens when you buy pop, energy drinks, beer, etc and you get the $ back when you return them). But enough about the hotel, now.  

                      

Piece Pizzeria and Brewing Co.

After we arrived in Chicago, Friday evening, and unloaded all of our luggage, this is where we went to eat. I did NOT have a good experience, mostly because this was the WORST day of my AWFUL cold. I had already lost my voice before we arrived. And it sounded cool. And it probably would have been great if we hadn't went on Friday Night (probably one of it's busiest nights, bet you). We were packed in there like sardines. My sister mentioned that there was no way that we all could evacuate safely if there was a fire. I agree with her. It would NOT have went well. So as I mentioned before, I am quite ill. My sister Emily has a headache, and my sister Kayla is feeling crappy - she is getting the cold that I am only just starting to get over - and we're not in a good mood. It's also FREAKISHLY loud in there, louder than 3 sick children/teens/whatever can handle. And louder than my mother can handle. And I never thought of myself as a particularly claustrophobic person, but right then I was TOTALLY FEELING IT. So, there's a wait. A long wait. Do you want to know how long we waited, sick and packed, and feeling awful? AN HOUR AND FORTY FIVE MINUTES. That is RIDICULOUS. The food was delicious but it just was NOT worth that. It wasn't! The whole time we were waiting I just wanted to leave soooo bad. Everyone in my family got pissy. My dad got mad because we were all upset and this was 'the one thing he wanted to do this whole trip'. You see, my dad had seen this on a previous trip and then afterwards saw it on the Food Network. It's owned by some guy from Cheap Trick and another dude. So my dad was all excited about going and what-not what-have-you. And the rest of us were upset for the obvious previously mentioned reasons and once we were seated it didn't magically make us all happy again. My dad had pretty much yelled at us at one point of the wait so none of us were happy with him, Emily was unhappy with all of us for not just dealing and saying that we complain etc too much (even though she complains like CRAZY and is guilty of all of the things that we did haha), and yeah pretty much. So we weren't really speaking and when the waiter gave us menus my sisters and I weren't even interested in picking out what was going to go on our pizza and so I believe my mom and Kayla? ended up choosing because my dad wasn't speaking to any of us. Once our food arrived he wouldn't even eat it. I think we were all on slice number two when he FINALLY started eating. The pizza was good. What's funny is we were eating pizza in Chicago and it's flat crust. What's great is I do NOT like deep dish pizza. Why do I not like deep dish pizza? Because I am not the biggest fan of pizza toppings. I'm just not. I also dislike condiments. Got a problem? In shock? Fight me. Except don't fight me. I wouldn't like that. But yeah, the pizza was really yummy. Kind of dry? But I think that might have just been me. I was chugging water like crazy because my throat hurt SOOOOO bad and pizza isn't exactly watery food that is soothing to the sore sore throat. So that was probably just me. But it was yummy. Worth chaos? No, not really. But good all the same. At the end of dinner my dad got a growler and two pint glasses. I'm glad that he wasn't afraid to get things during this trip, because us girls ALWAYS shop and buy things and he's always complaining about not getting anything ever. He can't do that this time, ahaha :P

Shedd Aquarium 

THIS WAS AWESOME. There was so much sea animals and I LOVE SEA ANIMALS THEY'RE AWESOME. My favourite sea animal is probably an octopus, just because they're awesome. But I also like sea horses, starfish, manna rays/sting rays, penguins, dolphins, whales, narwals, and any fish that was in Finding Nemo :D. They had a show with beluga whales, hawks, and dolphins. It was awesome. I bought some postcards and a necklace with a sea horse on it. I plan on showing you guys everything that I got in a haul video. I'm not going to make it until I'm better, though, because my voice is still weird, just from my sinuses being all bleh. But yeah we saw lots of fishies and I saw an octopus and some finding nemo fish and some manna rays/sting rays and penguins and starfish and sea horses and dolphins and whales and sea lions!! It was awesome!! They didn't have narwals, which are Mark's favourite sea animal. But that's okay. They had a lot of my favourite sea animals and I WUV THEM. It is expensive to go to Shedd Aquarium, don't get me wrong. But I had a really really good time :]

Buffalo Exchange 

This was one of the stores we went to. It's on Milwaukee, I believe. They buy, sell, and trade new and recycled fashion. That's a thing about the stores in Chicago. None of the ones I went to said they had used clothes, they called it recycled fashion. And that does sound a lot more appealing, eh? That's a good tip if you're opening a consignment shop or something like that. 'Recycled Fashion'. I bought three things and I'm pretty sure only one item was 'recycled fashion', though. I bought a white tank top, a pink dress (the 'recycled fashion'), and a bando (I'm pretty sure that's what they're called). What's funny about the bando, though, is that it's Free People brand. And we stepped into the Free People store shortly after we went to Buffalo Exchange and I saw THE SAME BANDOS in all sorts of colours. They were $28 and I paid $10 for mine. And I thought $10 was asking a lot, bahahahahaha. But I did like that store. They had great customer service.

A Bunch of Random Thrift Stores

My dad dragged us into a bunch of random thrift stores down Milwaukee. He had bought a blue corduroy sports coat at Buffalo Exchange, but his main objective whenever he's shopping at thrift stores etc is to find a crushed velvet sports coat. Why? I have no freaking clue. He just wants one reeeeeeally bad. He didn't find one. It's TOO random. 

Ragstock

This is where I spent the most money. This store is AWESOME. They have such good deals, like you have no idea. Except you will have an idea once you read this. So for one thing, all the winter stuff was half off. And in the basement they sell 'Recycled Fashion' and a TON of it was on sale. Like clearanced once and then clearanced again kind of on sale. But I ended up buying a lot (not all of it on sale). I got a purple strapless dress (goes perfectly with those mustard yellow boots I had been tweeting about last week), 5 bandos, a yellow thermal (half off), a grey/black hoodie, a headband, and 3 somethin-somethin's - one of which will be an item in my giveaway :D. THE EXCITEMENT IS BUILDING! I'm leaving for Toronto on Wednesday and when I'm there I'll get the other item in my giveaway. The winner will receive BOTH items, there will not be 2 winners. Please understand that. And it will not happen until a few days after my trip, health permitting. I will not be making any more videos until my voice is back to normal. I hope that that happens soon. This isn't some crap excuse because I don't feel like making videos. I legit am hating my voice right now. It's either sounding funny because my nose is all stuffed up or because my throat is all weird and scratchy AND SOMETIMES IT'S A COMBINATION OF BOTH o.O!!!!! Awful awfulness, right right? RIGHT?! Yeah. It sucks. But onwards, now merry men! 

Eat First II Chinese Food

So, we were all starving by the time my dad let us eat (he dragged us into A LOT of thrift stores, let me tell you!) and were craving chinese. So we went to the first place we saw. It wasn't fancy or anything, just your average small chinese restaurant. A handful of booths, no restroom, a counter, typical signs. Nothing special. I ordered chicken lo ming and crab rangoons. Their crab rangoons did not taste right. Like totally not enough cream cheese, if any. Mark and I make crab rangoons sometimes and ours tasted better than theirs. I still ate them, I freaking love crab rangoons like a lot a lot, but it was just kind of eh. And they gave me SO MUCH chicken lo ming. I ate a small portion of it, took the rest home with me (got it on Saturday, came back home from Chicago today (aka Sunday even though it's technically Monday) and I ate another small portion for dinner. Noodles = carbs/filling. Chicken = filling. And then there's veggies. And they give you A TON OF FOOD. So that'll last me awhile. Unfortunately it will probably go bad before I can finish it. I liked my food, though, overall. And my dad liked his, and Kayla was fine with her rice, and Em was fine with her food, but my mom did not like her sweet and sour shrimp. I hate sea food (except crab rangoons, they are the ONLY exception, with their deliciousness...) so I wouldn't have been interested to begin with, but her main issue was the thick thick breading or something. She didn't like the texture. And you know, texture is surprisingly important. Whoda thunk? :P (I say silly things sometimes, in case you haven't noticed). 

The Water Tower Place

After stopping back quick at the hotel, we went to the Water Tower Place. We did not know that it's actually across from the surviving water tower from the Chicago Fire so we didn't look at it (though it was really dark out anyway) and that disappoints me. But we did some shopping. My dad went to Abercrombie to get his cologne. I guess it's okay nowadays for 45 year old men to smell like 17 year old boys? Eh, whatever. Mark's cologne smells way better :P (he has the green Vurt from PacSun, which they no longer make? WHY?? It's the best!!). He also got a long sleeved yellow and blue shirt, and my mom got a really comfy tank top. While they were shopping I went to Forever 21 and bought a pink dress and some black ballerina tights (saddle strap tights - the kind dancers wear). I know I know I know. I just got sent a bajillion tights. BUT NONE OF THEM ARE LIKE THAT. And I've been looking for those kind of tights FOREVER. I love them <3. Anyway, after that we went to Victoria's Secret and Emily got her free panties (my card TOTALLY didn't come. Em's and my mom's did but I got skipped which is not fair!) and my mom bought something - wasn't paying attention as to what. But I got a sample of the new perfume!! It's Limited Edition, too. It's called PINK All My Heart. I just checked and it's $40 on the website. I honestly might buy it. It smells AMAZING. The fragrance mist is only $20 but I seriously LOVE the packaging on the perfume. And a mist is a mist, and I think perfumes are better and have a more stronger scent. 

Penney's Noodles (89% sure that's what it was called)

Yeah I'm pretty sure that this was the name of the place, but I may be wrong. But they have amazing thai food. I got pad thai and crab rangoons here (I told you I LOVE crab rangoons - if they sell them I'm ordering them even if I just had some. They are one of my favourites hahaha) and that was the first time I had thai food! The pad thai was SO good. And their crab rangoons were WAY better than the first chinese place. But we went here and met up with my parents friends and ate and talked and stuff. Kayla got this delicious creme brule. She was the only one who ordered desert, but she let everyone take a bite. So yummy!! And Emily got this thai iced coffee that was just delicious. I really like that place. 

Navy Pier

We went here today/Sunday. We've been to Navy Pier before. Emily got a onesie for Riley, and a handmade-for-her ring that says NJN and has her birthstone in it. Kayla and I both got cute rings since it was buy 2 for 5. And then I got Riley some shamrock socks (they're so cute!) and Kayla got James some dog treats (my dog, James Lucas Marley aka Jamie or Jamie Luke, spent the weekend at a kennel). I also bought Mark this candy Bob-omb thingy that I showed him (he really likes it :D). My dad bought us A TON of candy as a late Valentines Day treat since he didn't give us any on Valentines Day and he usually does. My dad bought my mom a claddagh ring and a necklace to give her on her birthday, and she bought him a celtic cross necklace, which she gave him right away. I like that they did that since once you have kids, if you don't make a certain amount of money, the gift giving to your spouse kind of disappears a little bit. And I can totally understand that. When we were walking around we passed this funhouse. We didn't go in, but they had some mirrors on the outside and we all took pictures of ourselves in them, hahaha. Then we looked at this stained glass museum thing, which was pretty cool. I took a lot of pictures. We ate there too at the...

Billy Goat Tavern

Which is famous from Saturday Night Live :P It's the 'CHEEZBORGER CHEEZBORGER CHEEZBORGER' place hahaha. They actually do say all of that stuff. It's pretty funny. I don't eat cow, though, so I got a ham and cheese sandwich. It was good. The place was really cool. 

AND THAT WAS MY TRIP. Now I am sick and tired and ready for bed. GOODNIGHT :P

                      

YouTube update

I learned something new today!
I guess individual videos can be monetized and only the certain video is in the partner programme? WEIRD!! I only thought that YOU could be in the partner programme (i.e. your channel).
One of my videos was eligible so I took a shot at applying for it to be monetized. No harm with that :P
I'm not sure why it was chosen, though. Compared to some of my other videos, it doesn't have that much views. Not complaining, though.
Do I think that it will make it? Maybe. Who knows.
Do I think that my channel will make partner? Someday, maybe. Not anytime soon.
Right now YouTube is something I do because I think it's fun and cool. I want my subscribers to be happy so I do feel pressured sometimes to film, edit, and upload in a timely fashion...but it is occurring to me that even if you have a request and I agreed to do it, it's my channel and if I were you I would just think it was awesome that someone was making a video for me. You know?
I lurve you guys for subscribing, and requesting, and liking my videos. I put my blog in the bottom bar every time (since I got the blog - there's a few videos w/out) and I don't know if any of you read it. It doesn't say I have followers, and I've only ever gotten one comment.
But it's fun to write to you anyway. THIS is how I communicate when I'm not making videos. Haha.

Giveaway

For those of you who watch a lot of my videos and are curious why I haven't done my giveaway yet, even though I'm passed 100 subscribers:
I don't have something to giveaway yet. I'm waiting until I'm done with my upcoming Chicago and Toronto trips. I'm planning on giving the winner of the giveaway souvenirs from the trips :]
For those of you who thought I was just picking someone - I'm not. It's going to be random, and with rules. But I will not post the rules here, I will announce them on the video after my trips. And I return from Toronto on March 6th. My mom's birthday is the 7th, so the video should be up by the 9th or 10th. I'm going to spend time with my mom on her birthday, so I won't be filming or editing anything :P
Just thought I'd give you guys an update!

I hate colds!!

Yep, pretty much. I have a cold right now. And tomorrow I'm supposed to go to Chicago with my family :(
But I don't think I'll be able to if I don't feel a lot better tomorrow...
It would not be very fun to go if I feel crappy and sick, not to mention hours in a car there and back. Bleh.
And this really sucks, too, because I haven't been to Chicago with my family in a long time. And it's always really fun.
The only ups to staying home is that I'd get to see Mark more before he goes and I'd get to see my friend Sonny, who lives in Ohio now, and my friend Brenna, who's off in Detroit for college.
But I'd still be sick.
Ugh I don't know what I'm gonna do.

Le sigh...

I hate that my boyfriend doesn't have a cell phone that he can use in the U.S.
It's annoying. Like I can't get ahold of him at all. Ehh.

I had an alright day, though. I did get a few things from Meijer.
I got a tank top (you will notice that I rarely purchase things for any season that is cold), and some cute pearl-y bobby pins for my now uber short hair, and two gel liners from e.l.f. One is white and one is purple. I don't even know if I'll like them (though I probably will) so it's just good that they're only $3 each. I really wanted to get the exact eyelights green eyes mascara, eyeliner, and eyeshadow pallet from CoverGirl, but it was just too expensive.
And I STILL don't have a job.
Meh.

I hope I get a job soon, though :]

So much fun!

I'm having a great time with my boyfriend this week! I'm so glad he's home <3
I know this means I'm not really making any YouTube videos, but hey, I'm not going to miss out on time with Mark :P
BUUUUUT I want him to do the Boyfriend Tag w/ me :]
And I have a video that I forgot about editing that I can probably put up soon, maybe this evening. But it isn't a video that anyone has requested.
Enough blogging! I must get ready for my date now <3

YAY FOR MAIL!

Today I went to my PO Box and got my sponsored tights packages.
SO MANY TIGHTS! Like, I'm set on tights pretty much.
Except there's some random pairs that I've been looking for.........and yeah. But really. I shouldn't buy any tights. Ahahahahhahahahaha.
I CAN'T WAIT TO DO ALL OF THE TIGHTS VIDEOS FOR YOU GUYS!!!
And I'm so grateful to the sponsor that sent them.

BUT

There won't be much time for videos, since tomorrow I am going to get a haircut and clean my room to get ready for my boyfriend coming home for spring break :]
And then I'll be going to Toronto a few days after he leaves and
*drumroll*
WE'RE GONNA SEE LADY GAGA IN CONCERT :D!!!!!
I'm so excited, you don't even know!!

Impatience

YouTube is doing some maintenance and I'm really really impatient. Ugh. I am so bored right now and I really wanted to use my inbox >:/
I did make my twitter all pretty, though. But now that that's over...YOUTUBE. YOU NEED TO FINISH WHATEVER YOU'RE DOING SO THAT I CAN USE YOU AGAIN!!
I'm watching Friends so I don't want to watch videos. I just want to manage my account :( And look at my sissys.
I added her channel to my other channels list, by the way. She deserves some more subscribers/followers/etc on her stuff. She's actually got a really good tumblr account - the link is in her channel and her channel is on my YouTube page :] Her videos are mostly just random stuff during the day on Allysia's cell phone. But I'm in some of them hahaha :P
Speaking of Em and Lysia, we went and saw Riley today. He's the most adorable baby in the world. I wish so bad the Nicole was here. She would be so happy and proud. She was so excited to be a mommy :'(
But really, I had a great time. I wuv him.

Watershed

Today I went to Watershed with my sister, Emily. Watershed is the church she goes to. It was fine. Since I don't really believe in god or anything, it's kind of just whatever for me. Like it doesn't really mean something special. But they tell you stories about stuff and Watershed has a band. Way more fun than the catholic church that I went to back when I was young and didn't have my own opinions about stuff. And back when my parents actually went to church, haha.
But I am reading this children's bible for Tuba. And even though I'm not looking at it in a christian w/e perspective, it's still learning about stuff. Even though I know the stories so much better than this children's book is telling them hahaha. I went to ccd for years, so I'd hope I remember this shizzz. Not that I'm calling what you (if you're a christian) believe in 'shizz'. I was just joking. Touchy subject here, I know. But hey, I'm being open minded. Tuba's having me read the kiddy book and then he's gonna get Em and I a student bible (which is especially nice for Em since she is actually a christian) so that we can read and understand the actual stuff. This kiddy book is supposed to be more like a chronological overview for us.
This is also good for me since I might be going to Aquinas. And that's a Catholic school so I'll have to take religious classes. I just hope they offer plenty of like...other religious classes in the theological requirements. Like from non-christian religions. Because as someone who doesn't have a religion or really care to 'find' one, I do think it's interesting, learning about what others believe in.
But yeah, pretty much. That's just what I did today.
:]

Updated Upcoming Videos

Alright, so it's been awhile since I've made out a list of videos I'm going to make, so here it goes :]

- Shoe Collection Video (Request)
I'm just going to model my favourite heels and flats for you guys.
- Everyday Makeup Video (Request)
For this I'm just going to do my makeup for you guys - show you how I do it everyday.
- Diana F+ Deluxe Kit Show and Tell
I wanna show you guys my camera :D
- Tights and Nylons Review Video (Sponsored/Requested)
I'm getting some tights/nylons sent to me, it's my first ever sponsored video and I'm really really excited about it! Of course I will give the review honestly :] I can't wait!!
- Tights and Socks Combo Video (Request)
For this, I'm waiting until I get my tights sent to me, in case some of them are really good for this video.
- Things I Wish I Knew In Middle School Series
I really really wanna do this series, but I'm not so sure anymore since I'm doing a lot of requests and I wanna make videos that you like.
- Video for FML
Again, I'm waiting for my package before I do this video :]

Who loves you guys???

I just filmed 4 videos today :] 

Two Valentines Day makeup tutorials, one ELF review, and a vlogy/question type video.

So first to be uploaded, once I'm done editing, will obviously be the Valentines Day ones since those are time sensitive. And since I don't care so much about the vlogy one as far as views go, I'll probably upload that one rather soonish.

And I have the toe polish one and how to put on tights videos done already, but I'm planning on uploading those ones soonish.

Love you guys! :P

Valentine's Day Videos

I think I'm going to do some Valentines Day makeup tutorials :] It'll mostly be eyeshadow stuff, because that's the main thing that I'll change up when I'm doing my makeup, since I don't wear blush and don't change up my lipstick color that much (I look AWFUL in red and brown shades hahaha).
I've also been requested to do an everyday makeup tutorial, so I'll be doing that pretty soon. I'm still in the process of unpacking my mom's car, so I'm gonna get my tripod out of the car tonight. I'm planning on filming tomorrow.
So yeah :]

Ugh

Michigan Works is so dumb. I live with my parents and evidently they make 'too much money' even though we're ridiculously in debt and they keep borrowing what little money I have and promising to pay me back. So they won't help me find a job. That's so dumb.
It's ridiculous.
I feel like jobs just fall into all of my friends laps and I work so hard applying everywhere and I HAVE STILL NEVER GOTTEN A JOB. What the hell??!!??
I'm upset :(

Superbowl Sunday

So...yeah that's today. I haven't been watching, though.
I spent too much time cleaning my room so that I could properly film in here for you guys, instead of in my dining room. It's been quite messy since I moved back home, but hopefully I can keep it clean as I unpack more. My mom's car still has a bunch of crap in it, but I believe I've made progress.
I did watch the halftime show, though. I liked it, even if it wasn't the best live performance. It was so cool!... and I guess I'm easily impressed by that kind of thing?
Oh well, I don't care. I like the Black Eyed Peas. I have a photo with Will.I.Am :]
I also have a some photos with The Matches - though they're definitely not as big, haha.
I just put up my PO Box video. I ended up not actually filming one, it's a text video. I didn't do my hair and makeup today - why get prettied up to clean?
But yeah. Hopefully I get up at a sane hour tomorrow and am ready in time to do some filming for you guys! I really want to do my ELF review, but I don't think I'll have time to until later this week.

All moved back

So today I went to my school for the last time, to get all of the rest of my stuff from my dorm room and sign my contract release for my housing. It feels good to be officially done living there. Like a big weight has been lifted off of me.
On the way home I had some yummy ravioli at Applebee's. It's funny...before this school year I had never eaten at an Applebee's...now I've been there 3 times :P
And before we got home we stopped at Meijer (mostly located in Michigan, way better than Wal*Mart) and my parents did some shopping. I got some mascara and a pair of tights. What is with me and tights? But for realz, they are so much more comfortable than jeans could dream of being. Which reminds me - I really really really really want jeggings!!! I still haven't had a pair and they seem like...the best.
Have any of you guys seen those commercials for pajama jeans? Uhm...ew. Jeggings = way better. I only wear skinny straight-legged jeans, though. I think flare and bell-bottom and whatever else they've got just isn't flattering/attractive/whatever. But that's just me. I mean I see other people wear other kinds of jeans and they look fine, but tight pants work best for me. Anything else just draws attention to the fact that my legs are like way to tiny. Bahahahahaha XD
Oh but the mascara I got was the Revlon Grow-Lucious mascara (FINALLY) and I'm sooooo excited to try it!! I should try to take some pictures of my eyelashes without any mascara on them later tonight. So maybe I can do some before and after kind of thing in a few weeks? That would be cool.
The ELF review is coming up very soon - I just need to clean the brushes. It might take a while for me to make it, though. I want to try to make my videos more cinematic and less crappy. Because believe it or not, I do have artistic training and I know that my videos are not very high quality. An HD video camera would be nice, but I work with what I got :P
Anyway, there will be a lot of video making soon. I still haven't finished up my stockpiled videos and I think I'm going to always make a bunch at once, because even though it seems like I have a lot of time on my hands...I don't. It just disappear so fast, you don't even know (but maybe you do).

So much or little to do...?

It's weird...I'm busy...but I'm not.
Like since I'm not at school I should have tons of time to do YouTube videos and stuff, right?
Well...wrong...because I don't film when my parents are home.
And I sleep really late and want to look nice when I video. And then at night the lighting is just like...awful. It's just hard. Like, I planned on filming two videos today.
How many did I film, you ask??
Zero.
FAIL.

YAY PO BOX!!! :D

I finally got my PO Box yay!!! I'm going to make a video about it really really soon. And by really really soon, I mean tomorrow :P
Why not right this instant? I didn't do my hair or makeup today. I felt lazy. I wanted to give my skin a break. And you don't need to look fabulous to spend hours playing Pokemon. So yeah, that's that. I can be quite lame.
Oooh but I did go to Meijer today, and I got some ELF things. I got a custom palette and four eyeshadows to put in it. I got a white, a brown, a grey, and a black. I really need a job for all of the money I want to spend on makeup. And clothes. And electronics.
So yeah. Hahahaha.
I will be putting up the address to my PO Box on my YouTube channel page, as well as an e-mail for contacting me (which I'll have to get better at checking...eh).
But that is that.

[Love and miss you, Nicole. Gonna make sure baby Riley has lots of books to read :P]

- Amanda

BLIZZARD 2011 :P

So it's like...really really really really really snowy outside. And I mean DEEP snow. Like if I walked outside it would go up past my waist.
Then again...that's not saying much since I'm ridiculously short. But whatever, ahahaha.
Emily went to visit Nicole's grave and had to unbury it. The sign that they put up was completely buried. Only Em could've found it, I swear.
I miss her so much...

But okay.
Continuing on...

It's looking unlikely that I will be getting my PO Box today, since the roads are so bad.
They like...never plow our road when this kind of thing happens. It sucks. And my dad is at work with my mom's SUV and so his car is here and it's small...no 4 wheel drive. My mom didn't have work because of the weather and my sisters had a snow day...but since we're stuck with the little car we can't even go anywhere.
Makes it hard to be productive, eh?

Awww dangit ugh.

So I'm having bank issues. Those strangers stealing money kind of bank issues.
So I was very distracted when I was out running my errands today.
I went to the Secretary of State, then to Walgreens, then to the bank.
What did I forget??
The stupid post office. Ugh.
So now I'll just have to do that tomorrow. Bleh.
This is like...the last thing I needed, honestly.

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*Sigh*

[Love you, NJN. Saw your mama today :] <3]

-Amanda

Honestly :]

I've been having a great time this past week.
I hung out with Chris and Julie last night, just sitting around at my house. Tonight I hung out with them and Emily and Brandon. We went out to eat (went to IHOP first, sat down and got waters and realized that we really wanted Chinese food bahahahahaha) and then to play pool. It was nice :]

But now it's time to get real and do productive things.
I'm going to go with my dad tomorrow, try to get my learner's permit (2nd one ftw bahaha XD), get my PO Box, and stop in at Walgreens to ask about the application I sent out last week. I hope all goes well, fingers crossed!!!

Ohh Nicole...

So, I saw her grave today :(
It was so sad. I miss her so much.
Em's been at her house all day today.
I think Riley might be home...? If so, I can't wait for when I finally get to see him.
I should have been here before...

[Love you so much, Nicole <33]

Video Update +++ PO BOX

This is for me as well as you (if you're reading this) because obviously I haven't been making videos lately. There have been a lot of things for me to deal with, as you know from the previous entries. But now I'm going to start up again. I think I want to stockpile the videos so that when I do get busy you guys aren't left hanging, because I have 68 of you guys now! I can't leave you with nothing for so long :]
But alright, without descriptions and deadlines, these are the upcoming videos:

- Etsy/Ebay Haul
- E.L.F. Review
- Spring Break Video
- Diana F+ Deluxe Kit show and tell/review
- Things I Wish I Knew In Middle School Series
- Sweaters Video (Request)
- Tights and Socks Combo Video (Request)
- Nail Polish Video (Request)
- Video for FML
- The Nylon Video (Request)
- How To Walk In Heels Video (Request)
- How To Put On Tights/Nylons Video (Request)

And I believe that's all I've got on my plate so far ahahahaha. It's sooo much. This whole YouTube experience is going so much better than I thought it would. I just need more time :P

AND
I will be getting a PO Box on Tuesday. So if there are any products that someone (company or individual) want to send me to review, that'll be an option now. It wasn't before, since I'm not about to give strangers my address. I'd also love letters or postcards - mail is like my favourite thing ever. But I would feel really bad/guilty if people sent me gift cards and such for no reason. I mean I can't force people to not and I guess if I get gifts I'll make a video semi-often showing you guys and thanking you. But still I mean...I just talk to you on YouTube. You guys are so awesome and great and make me so happy...but it's just like...I don't deserve all of that, hahaha.
But thank you guys so much for subscribing and commenting and liking my videos. You're all so amazing!!

- Amanda

Hotel

I'm having another good day, went to Rachael's school with Emily and Christine (her mom) and Elijah (her baby brother). We're at a hotel right now. Went swimming and hot tubing :]
I'm having a really good day/evening.
We're waiting for our pizza right now.

Oh wait - it just got here! Yay!! :D

I love being home!

Yesterday and today were just so awesome.
On Wednesday my friend Chris and I picked up my sister, Emily, from school (she's a senior in high school) and went to Steak and Shake, where my friend Julie works. We got half off shakes (because of the happy hour thing ahahaha) and Julie got out of work early :] Then we went to the mall and I got (another) new nail polish. Then we went to another local store before heading downtown, where we walked around a bit before heading to the museum for this exhibit opening. At the museum we met up with our friends Allen and Corey. After the museum we went and ate cider & donuts before dropping off Julie at her house and heading to Corey's house. But we were only at Corey's house for a bit before heading home. All and all, great day.
Today was less great because the power was out from 11:30am until whenever it got turned back on. But at around 5 me and my sisters, Emily and Kayla, went out and played Laser Tag with some friends. It was awesome. We got IHOP afterwards :P
Tomorrow I'm going to go visit a college with my sister and our friend, Rachel.
I told you I was still going to be productive. And I'm going to be applying for jobs as well. It's just hard to get a job in the winter (as everyone has been telling me :/)

[Love you, Koley Joy. Going to take Riley to arcade all the time <3]

-Amanda

Home

It feels soooooo nice to be home, you don't even know :]
I'm going to tear down all the stupid posters off my wall from middle school/early high school. And I'm going to paint my walls yellow. I think that it's kind of my new start dealio. But I've wanted my room to be yellow for a while now.
I'm just so happy :D I needed this, you don't know how bad I needed this. I don't think I even remember what it was like to be this happy about a decision that you made.
*happy sigh*

[Love you NJN <3]

(Should I start signing my name at the end of these so that you don't think my name is Nicole? Because I can see some possible confusion...?)

Well, tomorrow, then.

My aunt isn't home from her class yet, and it's late. So we won't be leaving until tomorrow morning then. I'm so anxious to be home, though.
But I don't mind being here. My (other) aunt's dogs love me :]
Tito is laying next to me right now. Koby would probably be here if Tito left some room, or if I wasn't on the computer.
My uncle is watching Antique Road Show at the moment.
The last weekend I was in Burt, I was at my cousin's house and we were watching Antique Road Show, and my mom was texting me. She said she was watching TV and I was like, 'Cool. Me too. We're watching Antique Road Show'. And then she texted back saying she was watching it too XD It was funny. I dunno. I thought I'd tell you.

[NJN <3]

My School Situation

Alright, so I couldn't do the online thing, because it would cost too much money and I'm already loosing a ton because I'm withdrawing from the winter semester. So that's that, I guess.
I get half of my tuition back, so I don't know if that means what I already owe them is payed for or not. It's really confusing. I'm going to have my parents help me out with it when I get home either late tonight or tomorrow morning.
But this whole ordeal was really dumb and hard and frustrating.
My advice to you is to NEVER stay at a place that you hate and that makes you miserable and unhappy. Because chances are, something will happen that will just be a breaking point and you don't want to get into a sucky situation like this.
Plus I've been so worried about disappointing everybody and though everyone who matters is being very supportive of me, I ended up getting into a fight kind of, with my cousin. I don't know if fight is the right word, though. It was more of just him trying to be motivational and get me to stay at my school but I was like "Yeah, but I really can't do this right now and I don't want to be here, I want to be home with people that I care about and who care about me and can help me through this, and I have no one here" kind of thing. Like not those exact words all at once, but that's pretty much the gist of what I said throughout the conversation, and he was just (and I'm sorry about the language I'm about to use) a complete fucking ass to me. He ended up pretty much yelling at me, and I'm sorry but he's not even hardly involved in my life. He doesn't really know me that well.
My other cousins on my mom's side of the family -- they're like my best friends. They know me sooooo well. Enough that they've heard about this all enough to not be surprised at the end result. They understand the situation and are supportive. And that's what I need.
But now that this is pretty much done and over with, I'll be writing less about my whole school situation. I'll be focusing this blog more on my YouTube, and the other stuff going on in my life (finding a job, finally learning to drive, looking at new schools, etc).

[Miss you so much, Koley Joy <3]

Tomorrow tomorrow, it's only a day away...

I can't wait to go home. I'm going to call the Academic Advising office at my school tomorrow and try to get everything figured out. But no matter what, I get to go home <3333
Emily said she would film the Toenail Polish Video with me. And we're going to go visit a school this weekend.
I hope my aunt gets out of her class early so that we can go home tomorrow instead of Tuesday morning...
When I get home I'm going to snuggle up in my living room, put on a movie, and eat a whole box of hohos's with my sister. I miss you so much, Nicole...:(

Packing

I've done a lot a lot of packing.
My roommate is here right now and she has yet to acknowledge any of my packing. I'm actually kind of afraid for when she does because I don't really know what to say to her. I never told her anything about Nicole, or anything about me leaving my University.
She asked me if I wanted to bake cookies tonight and I said no, that I was going to my Aunt's tonight. That is true. I am going to my Aunt's. She asked me how long I was staying and I said until Tuesday. Also true. On Tuesday I'm going back home to Holland though, not back to here.
I feel like she's purposely avoiding obvious questions. That or she's just really really dumb (which might be the case, though for her sake I hope not).
I want to go to Toronto. I want to see Mark :'(

[Love you, Nicole]

Things are looking up...however slightly

I'm leaving my University.
It's the middle of the semester, but I'm doing it anyway.
I hate it here and I have no friends and I'd cry enough about that as it is.
Now with all that's happened I just can't be alone in a place that I hate and I'm leaving.
If I can do some of my classes online, I will. I don't want to waste money.
No, I am not dropping out of college. A lot of people take semesters off - which I might not even do if I can do some online classes - I'll just be transferring to a different University afterwards.
This won't make everything all of the sudden better.
But if I can do something to make me happy, not so miserable all the time, I have to do it.
I thought everyone would be so disappointed in me, but they're not. That's a good thing.
So that's that, I guess.
I'm going to do some packing and counselor visiting tomorrow and maybe Monday and then it's home sweet home for a loooooooong time <3

Love you so much, NJN <3

*Sigh*

I don't know when this is going to get easier.
I don't want to go back to school and try to move forward at a place that I hate.
I want to take the rest of this semester off, get a job at Steak and Shake with my friend, and just get through it that way. Mmmmrf.
I want to see my sister. And I want her to actually care about seeing me and stuff.
The problem is that I love everyone so much and I'm just somewhere on the sidelines of their lives.
Not so important.
Hmmmmm :'(

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is going to be so hard.
I don't even know how I'm going to handle it.
And then go back to school right afterwards.
Just how?!?
This is awful, guys.
Awful :'(

Upcoming Requested Videos :D

Alright, I've gotten a good amount of requests lately :]
So here's an update on what videos I'll be making that you've requested, and a time-table for about when you'll see it because some of them might not be made for a while.
Okay;

- Sweaters Video
I will gather up all of my hoodies, cardigans, etc and tell you which ones are my favourites, where I got them all, how much they cost (if I remember) and anything else I can think of about the sweaters. Since I've got a lot of requests for other videos, you'll probably see this video around the end of February unless I magically get a ton of video making time and feel up to it right away. A lot of video making is on hold until I feel better :(

- Tights and Socks Combo Video
I will show you different ways to wear different socks with different tights, and what's cute with what. BUT and I will get to this video as soon as I can, I need to get some more socks. I keep loosing them at my grandmas and at my house so whenever I'm at school I'm like running out of socks that are nice. So in a week or two maybe? When I have money for socks. Bahahahahaha.

- Nail Polish Video
I'm going to paint each of my toes a different colour of nail polish - I'll tell you which colour each toe is, how much it cost, and where I got it (if I remember). This might not happen for a while because I don't have that much nail polish. But as soon as I can. I promise. I saw some cute ones at Walgreens when I was out with my sis getting stuff for her tattoo. Oh - I'm probably going to have her in it when I do that video. So you will see 20 different shades of nail polish (at most - we might repeat hahaha) But yeah.

AND
I'll be doing a Tights Questionnaire Video for FML (Fashion My Legs) (I know, when I saw that I thought eff my life too, it's all good). I'm really excited about this one :D
I might not be able to make it for awhile, but I'll try.

Tattoo

Today I went with Dave and my sister when they go their tattoos.
They say:

This too shall pass
NJN Dt. 30:1

And it's on their wrists. I miss Nicole so bad :'(
And it's so hard because I'm starting to get a lot of requests for things on YouTube and I want to make videos for all of you guys but I'm going through such a hard time.
I love you all. I have a video that I'll upload soon that I recorded a few days ago.

I'm quite sure that soon I'll be getting a tattoo. Just a small one on my big toe that says:

njn ♥

Just simple. And in the summer when I'm wearing flip flops I'll see it everyday. And it's perfect, because I spent so much time with her over the summer.
I'm trying so hard not to cry right now.

What's funny is I know that if I showed her my YouTube or my blog or anything, she would laugh at me so hard.
I love her so much.

:'(

Nothing feels alright

I would usually be ecstatic that so many people like one of my videos.
But I just can't feel happy right now. Now that you're gone.
I love you so much, Nicole :'(

Praying

I'm not a religious person, and I don't know what I believe.
But I'm going to do everything I possibly can for Nicole <3
I know she can get through this, and I want to help her in any way possible, and I want as many people to help pray and send good thoughts as possible. And I know that no one is reading this blog at this point, but sometimes you just need to get things off your chest, you know?
I just want her to get better. To be able to hold her baby boy and kiss his toes.
This is probably one of the hardest things I've ever gone through, I'm constantly on edge, constantly waiting for news, hoping for the best, dreading the worst. And I know it's only half as hard for me as it is for all of her family, and her closer friends.
I love her and I want her to get better so bad. It's what I wish for, pray for, think about...
My eyes constantly brim with tears - I have to calm myself constantly to make them retreat.
I wrote a poem about her in my creative writing class today. I used to just write a poem when asked to for class. I'm not used to writing them about my feelings.
You can do this Nicole, I know it.
I love you.

ELF Order

YAAAAAAY IT CAME IT CAME :D
I get so excited when I get packages. Actually, I get super excited about mail in general. When I'm at home, I'm always the one who wants to run out to the mailbox. I can't wait until I'm older and live on my own and all the mail that comes is for me or my future husband :P
But then again, most of it will be bills and that's no fun. Hahaha.
Anyway, here's a list of the things that I got, in case anyone was wondering (though to my knowledge as of this time, no one reads this blog hehe):
- High Definition Powder
- Complexion Perfecter
- Lip Primer and Plumper
- Eyeshadow Primer
- Concealer Brush
- Eye Defining Brush
- Crease Brush
- Studio Powder Brush
- Studio Complexion Brush

So...yay! I can't wait to make my videos about it for you guys, and remember! Today my roommate has work this evening so I'll be filming *drumroll* the Tights Video!!
I will also be filming the haul video and possibly a newly requested sweaters video.
So by the end of tonight I will probably be really sick of filming and won't do it for a bit. But I won't be posting these all on the same days either, so you guys won't notice any absence haha.
Ohh and I never wanted to hit the 'subscribe' thing really hard, but I really want to do my contest and it would be no fun at all if a lot of people didn't enter...so I'm going to have to start asking I think :/
Oh well, it'll be worth it. :]

21 Subscribers :D

I know that that's not a very big number, but when I made my YouTube account, I didn't expect anyone to subscribe. And when I started legitimately making videos I thought maybe 6 or 7 subscribers. But now I have more than I can count on my hands!
More.
Than I can count.
On my hands.
o.O
So I got to thinking, if I'm going to get more subscribers sometime, maybe I should do a contest.
If I get to 100 I'll do a contest I think. Or should it be sooner?
Hmmmmmm...

It's not fair :'(

My sister's best friend Nicole is really really sick.
She just had a baby boy on Thursday and I guess she was bleeding internally and they didn't know.
Everything seemed okay on Friday, and yesterday morning my mom texts me saying that Nicole has a blood clot. I was worried but it seemed like she'd be okay.
Then a few hours later my mom texts me saying that she had a heart attack :'(
I wake up today to a text saying that her heart stopped a few times during the night, and if it stops again her family decided that they're not going to revive her.
Now I hear that she has other organs that are failing.
I just want her to get better, it's not fair :'(
I love her and I was so happy for her all of last week and then this happens and now it's just awfulness and awfulness piling up and it's just not okay. It's not.
Poor Nicole. Poor Riley. Poor Emily. Poor Nyboers. Just WHY?? :'(

Amanda At Midnight

It's this kind of thing that is why I thought of my YouTube name.
Being up every night past midnight. Getting the most bored at around this time. 'Wasting' time on the internet the most at around this time...

Though honestly I now spend a LARGE LARGE majority of my time on the internet.
Too much of my time.
But whatever. It's working out, so whatever.

Anyway, tonight has been really really fun.
I'm out of town, at my Grandmas. And that means hanging out with my cousins etc.
And lots of fun.
They're like, my best friends - and that's why it's so perfect that we're family :]

Hope you guys are having great nights too.
Though I'm pretty tired now, honestly.
Up a bit too late last night with not enough sleep, since I didn't get to sleep in.

But yeah. Have a wonderful evening :D